All the last posts have focused on symptoms, anxiety and negative feelings. I thought today I should write about the normal days, the positive days, which also exist and are significant in number. I feel one tends to take happiness and positivity for granted so the spotlight automatically falls on anxiety and negativity. Telling the difference How do you distinguish a good day from a bad day or a fine day from an okay day? It’s not black and white….
Last week I spoke about anxiety, the different kinds of anxiety and how it affects me mentally and physically. Like mentioned, anxieties tend to manifest bodily in one form or another. Please refer to last week’s post ‘Anxious much?’ to read more about it. Coping versus avoidance We have coping mechanisms to handle any unpleasant feeling or experience. The mechanisms may not always be positive or helpful and may in fact be avoidance tactics rather than coping mechanisms. Let me…
Last week I went through a depressive phase. I knew when I woke up, things were not going to be fine. People’s first instinct is to ask what happened but the thing with Bipolar II is that nothing has to necessarily happen for me to feel sad or even happy for that matter. It just is. Sometimes I feel like I am carrying a giant boulder on my shoulders. This boulder is a knotty mess of all the anxieties I…
Yesterday I was 23 and financially and emotionally independent. I was working towards fulfilling my dream career; a PhD student at a ‘top-tier’ institute. On paper my life was perfect, and yet, I felt like I did not deserve to be happy or enjoy simple pleasures like hot showers, delicious meals, meeting friends etc. I did not stop myself from doing these, but I constantly felt guilty about it. I went on with life ordinarily and lived with my feelings…