Last week I went through a depressive phase. I knew when I woke up, things were not going to be fine. People’s first instinct is to ask what happened but the thing with Bipolar II is that nothing has to necessarily happen for me to feel sad or even happy for that matter. It just is. Sometimes I feel like I am carrying a giant boulder on my shoulders. This boulder is a knotty mess of all the anxieties I…
Yesterday I was 23 and financially and emotionally independent. I was working towards fulfilling my dream career; a PhD student at a ‘top-tier’ institute. On paper my life was perfect, and yet, I felt like I did not deserve to be happy or enjoy simple pleasures like hot showers, delicious meals, meeting friends etc. I did not stop myself from doing these, but I constantly felt guilty about it. I went on with life ordinarily and lived with my feelings…
Awareness How do you feel today? Are you agitated, stressed, anxious, hyper? I often feel all of these things, sometimes all at once. Do you ask yourself this question? Are you attuned to how your mind and body are feeling? It took me a while to become aware of changes in my mind and subsequently my body. I also realised that my emotions and my thoughts manifest in some part of my body. Like all physical illnesses, all mental illnesses…